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In 2014, I shared with the whole world what I was facing! I remember the day so vividly because I feel as though I had hurt some family and friends in the process by not telling them about the REAL me, my REAL struggle with depression. I knew God was asking me to share about it. I fought and pleaded to the Lord but He won, of course, and I could not shake the calling to share and so I did. I know that the postpartum depression started shortly after Bella was born and carried through past Gabbi and even Zac. I look back onRead More →

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I am an emotional train wreck, full of ups and downs, full of discontent when I lose myself in myself… Life as I make it, can be completely messy and hard… When I lose sight of God, this is what I see. When I just completely see all the things that I am working on, the things that I have not completely surrendered to God and try to fix on my own, all I see is failure! In my place of surrender, I see ALL the Beauty in the ashes that God made completely for me, just for me! That in the depths of my despair,Read More →

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 On my last post, I wrote about praying this prayer: “If all this STUFF, the hard stuff, the things that kind of really rocks my thinking and challenges my faith. If all of this is happening just so You can get my attention, to draw me closer to You, to know Who You are and what You are able to do in me, to show me You are real so that I can tell others about You and Your Faithfulness—then, LET IT BE! Do what You need to, so that people will see You through the way I react, the way I praise, the wayRead More →

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“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will hear you. You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart.” Jeremiah 29:11-13 “Call to me and I will answer you, and will tell you great and hidden things that you have not known.” Jeremiah 33:3 “Be still, and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in theRead More →

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On our way back to Maine from my trip to Va for a weekend, Gabbi got really sick, I mean diarrhea sick. I know too much info! So, I had gone in after my friend said Gabbi had an accident. It was not pretty nor did it smell like roses! 🙂 I asked Gabbi what was wrong and she explained how her stomach was hurting and how she was afraid of getting in trouble for having an accident. I was honestly a bit annoyed inside that this was happening because in my head, I was thinking, “this is going to be a LONG day inRead More →

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Many of you all know about our struggle with Zac this past year with sickness and we have been to many specialists that have not provided with any explanation as to why he has been sick. BUT, thankful, that the doctors are looking! I believe he has become a pin cushion the past year. He also stopped growing for about year after he turned 6 months old. His appetite has been very good but it’s like he has hard time absorbing nutrients and has constant diarrhea. He has also had a hard time healing from cuts and bruises…the site gets infected easily. It seems hisRead More →

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Two comments that I have let rule my life the past few years: “You are not fit to be in this Pre-Med program, you need to look for something else to do.” I took it as something that I was not fit to try new things because I would not succeed. “You are a dreamer who wants to do a lot of things that just is IMPOSSIBLE for you to do.”  This really put a damper on my ability to dream about things. I went into college with high hopes of being in the pre-med program so I could be a doctor one day likeRead More →

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The alarm goes off at 7am and Chris gets ready for church and leaves the house by 8 or 8:30am sometimes he gets up even earlier. Most days, the kids seem really easy to get ready and we go out the door with no issues, no blowouts and no temper tantrums…But on Sundays, it’s probably the hardest day to be a Mom and a pastor’s wife… I literally pray for a TON of grace to flood over my life and especially my heart in dealing with the little people in my life on a Sunday! Sometimes it’s just hard to even recognize grace and IRead More →

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A few days late but I want to write and share these: Thankful for a husband who works hard to allow me to stay home with the kids! Thankful for our little children who fill our lives with such joy, sometimes frustration but all worth it! They make life feel very fulfilled and I am so thankful that God gave us three little blessings! Thankful for our family who continue to love, support and pray for us even though we are far away! Thankful for all the friendships God has given us here in Maine and thankful for our friends far away who have beenRead More →