A couple weeks ago, the Obgyn put me on bed rest. Not FUN at all because my bed rest started very early this time and I have 10 more weeks to go. I am praying that baby Zachary will cook for as long as possible! With God all things are possible! With Gabbi, I went into preterm labor(my cervix had dilated to 2cm already) with her at 29 weeks and was admitted the first time for 4 days and at 33 weeks, I was admitted again for going into labor with her and the doctors tried all they could to stop the labor. Drugs stopped working at the time, but the prayers of God’s people worked miracles! The Obgyn wanted to induce me, but again, I, along with many others, prayed that my body would go into labor all by itself because I dreaded being given more drugs to do something my body didn’t want to do. Gabbi finally arrived at 39 weeks without being induced and I was able to deliver naturally! I do not expect anything less than a miracle and I know that God will answer our prayers this time with baby Zachary. I pray for his health and mine and I have peace in knowing that God will see us through this like He has done in the past!
There was an incident this past week where we had told some people about me being on bed rest and the comments I had received were not quiet as expected. It left me shocked and discouraged to know how some people could be so unthoughtful! Maybe I am spoiled or have my expectations set too high, but simply, instead of an offer to help me with things around the house or the girls because Chris works another full time job outside of the church, I got, “Well, I guess, you are just going to have to call your parents and Chris’ parents to come and help you during this time, huh?” Maybe, I just took the comment the wrong way, but it resounded in my heart in a hurtful way…Can I say that both sets of our parents live 14-16 hours away and have jobs to work!
Anyways, this week, I was trying really hard not to feel sorry for myself but kept repeating to myself, “God, I trust in Your unfailing love!” and “I know You WILL take care of us during this time” and God, in His infinite mercy, kept reminding me, “TRUST ME! Don’t You know how much I love You, Chris and the family? Don’t You know that I will always take care of You?!”
Yesterday at church, God did the most unbelievable and I ended the day with feeling nothing but Love from the Father Almighty! We have a friends that come to church to help us with stuff at church and they all came up to me saying they bought me a special recliner to sit on during service and at home and lunch, along with a couple of other goodies, to help us survive this time of bed rest. They live very far away from us, but offered to come and help us out with anything. How encouraging after a week of discouragement! All throughout service, all I could think of was, “Wow, they didn’t even know what happened earlier this week, but yet, God used them to show just how much He loved us and wanted to take care of us through this season of our lives!”
I am reminded by instances like this that we are never alone, God is always there every step of the way, holding our hands and that all we really have to do is to trust in Him with everything! I am also reminded that being in the ministry is sometimes very lonely and that people around you let you down, but that God is always faithful and He always comes through! He is always CONSTANT when others let you down! I am thankful that God is always “watching my back!”
“But I have trusted in your steadfast love;
my heart shall rejoice in your salvation.
I will sing to the LORD,
because he has dealt bountifully with me.” Psalm 13:5-6
